Man, I just can’t wrap my mind around the fact that he’s really gone. I thought about him all day yesterday, remembering all the times he had with us. I think I’m sort of in a bit of denial right now. I don’t think it’s really going to sink in until I see him in that other uniform, not until we get to Spring Training and Heath Bell comes into the 9th the save the game. I must admit, it will be pretty exciting to see Heath is his new role. But I might just cry when I see him save a game for the first time.
I know it might seem like I’m overreacting a bit here, but I think some of you understand. I think all of us have lost a very special player at one point or another. Trevor’s been here for 15 years, and he’s a part of San Diego. It’s almost like having a close family member move away, it really is. I know I shouldn’t be this upset, but I also know that I have every right to be. And when you think of all the things he’s done for this organization, the things that are going to have to change, it’s devistating. So I’m trying not to think about it too deeply because it hurts to much, it’s too terrible to dwell on for too long. This guy has been the face of the organization for years. Suddenly, he’s gone. I’m just pretty drained. I don’t want to think about it. This is a pain that’s not going away for a long time. But the thing is, I will get better. I will eventually get over this. Life goes on. Trevor will have a wonderful year with the Brewers. And he will go into the Hall of Fame as a Padre. I do have a slight tiny hope, though. Trevor’s new contract is for only a year. Maybe he can come back to the Padres in 2010. It’s a long shot, I know. But it’s hope. I’m not giving up.
Baseball is just a game, I know. But Trevor was special. He was so much more than just a player on the field. He and his family were heavily involved in the community. They are ingrained here in San Diego. Trevor’s wife, Tracy, is running a children’s gym. Their three boys have been here their entire lives. They grew up in the Padres’ clubhouse. They have all their friends here, their entire lives are here. It’s sad. But once Trevor retires, his family will be living here.
And now, a portion from an article on padres.com:
That deal is currently being organized and may come to fruition by the start of Spring Training. That means next offseason, when Hoffman is a free agent again, the club’s finances might be different.
But at this point, Hoffman said he can’t conceive of going back.
“I just can’t see that,” he said. “I think once Heath Bell gets settled into the closer’s role, they’ll be comfortable with that. They could have handled my situation a lot better. There could have been a meeting of the minds. They could’ve said they were just going younger, which is their right. Really, we all could have handled it a lot better. We could have walked away feeling a lot more respect for each other. I just don’t think a deal there was to be had. And I’m fine with it. I just think it was time to move on.
“Now there’s just the backlash that I took the money and ran. [People] are having a lot of fun with it right now. It’s not real pretty. I’m getting a lot of calls. But it was fun. It was a good run. Shoot, 16 years, I can’t squawk about it. Not many players get to stay with a club for 16 years. I was pretty lucky.”
We miss you, Trevor!