This St. Louis series has been horrible for the Padres. We have had sizable leads in all 3 games only to have them quickly erased. We’ve scored 15 runs in the last 3 games but have lost all 3. We are actually hitting for a change! So what is the problem? Well, it’s our starting pitching. Jake gives up 4 solo homers in game 1. Maddux and Wolfie give up 6 runs in their starts. Thatcher blows it again. I said that we were hitting. Let me rephrase that: we are hitting in the early innings. We are down by 1 run today and we leave 5 runners on with less than two outs in 2 later innings. We had the chances to win this game. But we didn’t. We have failed once again. I’m going to be out of town next week with no way to find out how the Padres are doing. If they’re going to be playing like this, then I am so glad that I won’t be able to know. As fans, what on earth do we do in a situation like this? We are getting a win a week. If you’re as attached to them as I am, how do you cope with it? I haven’t been listening to the games as much. I don’t listen to XX that much anymore during the day ’cause I don’t want to hear about the problems. I don’t listen to the postgame show. I think isolation will do me good. Maybe it’s just St. Louis.They are very good. They are fighting back and winning. Somehow I don’t think things are going to change this season. I just wish we could be winning. But this is not the end of the world. We will survive this. I don’t have hope for this season, so we need to look ahead.There is hope in the future. In 5 years, we could have a young team with talent. We could have a real contending team. I love baseball. I can still enjoy the playoffs without the Padres. It will be a long, hard offseason, but next year is a new chance. And tomorrow is a new day. So let’s get us a win before I leave! I’ll be back in a week or so. Go Padres!